My first performance on stage was in church. I don’t recall what role I played but it was a Christmas play and it was the first time that I had to step on stage and had to do my thing. Mom and dad were so proud of their little girl but I was scared out of my wits and knew I couldn’t do it or rather I told myself that I couldn’t. The church was jam-packed as I stepped on stage. I stood there frozen as my eyes swept the scene before me. All eyes were trained on me and the cue was given to start but I stood there and stared back at the people! I could see the children giggling but it was a lost cause. No amount of cajoling helped and I walked off stage feeling like a total failure.
Little did I know that being in the public eye would follow me throughout my life. It’s just like life. The more you don’t want to, the more you get your face rubbed in it! Years later, I would step up to the podium to give a speech. I froze each time I had to do it but it got better as time went on. The “freeze tactic” was just temporary. The minute I stood there and opened my mouth, I was able to perform like a pro. It took practice but it is not my favorite thing to do. I’m still an introvert deep within but the outside show of confidence masks that fact.
I’m glad I no longer have to do any of that. Oh God, did I speak too soon?!! If life is listening, let it go in one ear and out the other!
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