My Favorite Candy?

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I don’t have one right now. Sweet things are not at the top of my list when it comes to pampering myself. I like a piece of chocolate now and then but that’s about it. Going back in time when I just didn’t care about my health, Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups comes to mind. I loved the chocolatey nutty taste of this candy and it was my go to when I needed something sweet but these days, cheesecake has replaced that craving and since it is not a candy, I can’t add it on here. Too bad!

Reese’s Buttercups manufactured by The Hershey Company was a fan favorite. The flavor combination can be traced back to 1928, when H. B. Reese created this treat in his basement. However, the mixture of peanut butter and milk chocolate makes this a high fat treat. One Reese’s cup has about 88 calories and 8 grams of fat. If you’re watching your diet and on a healthy one at that, keep away from this treat! The calories add up quickly.

It used to be my favorite but not anymore. These days I do without the “sugar rush” and stick to fruit and a piece of cheesecake now and then. No fun? I agree but health matters and it is at the top of my priority list so I bite the bullet and do without. Most days anyway until I hear that call. The one that screams, “Come get me!” Yes, you guessed it. It is the call of the wild from the “cheesecake” and it usually wins!

Daily writing prompt
What’s your favorite candy?

I Need a Break…

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I need a break from overthinking! It is a problem that I deal with everyday. No matter what happens in my life or doesn’t happen, I am in the overthinking mode! It takes hold and I bring different scenarios into the picture AND spend time working on solutions for non-existent problems!

It is a waste of time I know but at times I can’t control my mind. I call it the “monkey” because it hops around too much and runs the gamut without an okay from me! It also keeps me from the task at hand because I’m busy chasing it around! Perhaps, all or some writers have that problem. We are creative people and imagination runs wild, it does with me anyway.

I am reeling it in by concentrating on the here and now. This method works but not always because I love being in that imaginary world where the “monkey” has the upper hand. Walking helps and being out in nature definitely helps to soothe the mind and to calm it, meditation does too but it is constant work to keep it in check and it is tiring to say the least. So, I need a break from constant overthinking.

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Daily writing prompt
Do you need a break? From what?

The Mobile Phone

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It was a major technological invention. You can call it the mobile phone, handy, cell phone or whatever, I can’t see myself without it. It is my go to when things go wrong and I never leave home without it. What did we ever do without this invention? We had a hard time that’s what.

This handy little gadget makes home banking a breeze, calling for help if you are stranded somewhere even more so and if you need to know something, Google is just a tap away!

I like the feeling of knowing that I have more than a companion tucked away in my jacket and help is just a phone call away. I also like the convenience of calling friends when I am out on a walk, sipping coffee in a cafe and having the little gadget close by and the convenience of having a to-do list all ready to be fulfilled with a glance and nothing more.

I know that I can’t see myself without this Jack of All Trades and much much more. I consider it the best invention of my lifetime for all the reasons stated above.

My Ideal Day

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How would I describe it? I want to say I would do nothing the whole day long but that is not me so let’s see.

I would stay in my PJs all day if I could! Since that is a no go, I would stay in them part of the day, have a long leisurely breakfast in bed, watch the news and then “hauntings” on TV. I love to spook myself.

After breakfast, I would check emails, write, have another cup of coffee and venture out into the clear blue yonder. A walk in nature would be next on the list and for this I would have to change into sweats. The thing about this village is people don’t care. The women show up in their night clothes, sometimes with rollers in their hair and looking like they had just got out of bed and show up at the bakery or the butcher ready to do what needs to get done. It is an old, old, village and tradition reigns supreme. Not dressing up is one of them! I am trying to not go in that direction but it’s tempting!

Lunch would be a simple affair and more writing would follow if my mind allows it. Some days I draw blanks. A break in between would include workouts of my choice and at the moment it is a combination of cardio and weights. Dinner would be soup and a slice of toast, back into pjs and time to relax and watch some TV. Just before bed, it is meditation time to clear the mind of all that is not needed. Throw in “no problems” and that would make it an ideal day if not a perfect one.

Daily writing prompt
Describe your most ideal day from beginning to end.

Significant Life Events

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I feel significant events have shaped my perspective on life and I suppose it goes without saying.

Divorce or rather the breakup of my marriage made me sit up and take off those rose-colored glasses. I was naive and thought it would last forever but “forevers” are for fairytales not real life. I started looking at life from a different perspective and trust is an issue I deal with constantly. It is getting better but it will take a long time to overcome and to trust again. It is an uphill battle.

Death is another significant event that showed me life is very temporary. Here today, gone tomorrow comes to mind. Losing my mom and then a dear close friend showed me how fragile life is.

These two significant events have caused major impacts on my life. I can say it was not for the better but I did learn some lessons from them and that is life is fleeting and trust takes time. Trust takes a lifetime to build and just seconds to destroy. Pay attention to that because it is the absolute truth.

Something That Never Gets Done!

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I would say plenty. Having good intentions to get something done is there but the will to do so is sometimes missing! Let’s take the office area for instance. I have a mess going. Papers everywhere and lots of things that need to be filed and put away and as I said before, I want to do it but every time I approach the task, something inside screams, let’s leave it for another day! And so it goes. One day, I will get to it but not just right now.

The other thing that never gets done is the room upstairs. My former friend left a lot of stuff behind before he passed away and I have good intentions of looking through them but something stops me. The one time I tried, I came across a handwritten note that said, “I love you sweetheart,” and I froze. So, I stay away from opening boxes and coming across messages that tear at my heart. I am healing but I am not all the way there. One day, I will get to it as well and I hope I can do it without dreading what I will come across.

I need to get a new phone because the one I have is acting up. The upstairs phone is fine but the one downstairs refuses to ring! Why? How do I know? It just wants to add to the things that I need to get done. I need to replace it. Easy enough to get a new phone but installing it is frightening. What if I do something wrong? What if it doesn’t work? Tech klutz remember? So, that is another thing that needs to be done.

Being a single woman is not easy BUT I’m not getting a guy just so he can do all the stuff that needs doing. Yes, they have offered but I think that is like a bribe so I refuse. Oh, well, welcome to my world. I am still not where I need to be.

One day soon I hope. Fingers, toes and everything else crossed!

My Favorite Thing to Cook

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I am a good cook, a talent I inherited from my mom. She was a really good cook. I also have a big collection of cookbooks I collected from my travels around the world and I read them like a book! However, I don’t use the recipes per se, I take them and change them around and it usually turns out great.

Indonesians are great cooks. They can take the simplest of ingredients and turn it into a meal fit for a king or queen. There is one recipe I love from that country. It is made with boiled eggs and a thing they call a chili sambal. Crushed chilies with loads of spices and sauteed with chopped onions served on plain white rice. How can something so simple taste so scrumptiously good? Believe me, it does if you’re into spicy foods as I am.

I make this dish really well. There are other recipes but this one is my favorite and I make it whenever winter rolls around and I need something to warm the soul. It does the trick.

Daily writing prompt
What’s your favorite thing to cook?

My First Computer

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Honestly, I can’t remember much about it! All I can say is that I needed a computer to get my papers done and I was using the one at the university library because I didn’t have a computer of my own. It meant late nights at the library trying to get my work done and walking alone to the car park afterwards. I didn’t feel safe because there had been a couple of incidents involving female students getting raped and assaulted.

I decided to get a computer and a friend helped to set it up because I am not computer savvy and a klutz where technology is concerned. I don’t recall what brand it was or what it could do, just that I could work on my papers late into the night without fear and let me tell you, it was freedom of a new kind! No more rushing to the library in the evenings and no more overthinking about what could happen in that car park.

My first computer helped to get things done but I don’t think it was high tech compared to what I have now. The one I have now is fast and has so many additional features but the old one was slow but it did what was necessary at that time in my life.

Daily writing prompt
Write about your first computer.

Fearful Things?

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I have many from a fear of ghosts, blood, sickness and the unknown but if I had to pick one and not from that list, it would be this one. It is the fear that “I am not enough.”

I often tell myself that I can’t do this or that or that it is impossible because I don’t have it in me to weather the storm or that I am not strong enough. I am learning that this is far from the truth. I have done so many things in my life and looking back, I don’t know where or how I got the strength to do what I needed to do to survive what life threw my way. I survived my mom’s murder, I overcame the disastrous effects of a divorce and I accompanied a friend to his deathbed and told them to stop the meds and to let him go. It was one of the hardest things I had to do. I did it all when I was faced with the circumstances and there was no running away from it and “I was enough” at those times.

I think we are all fully capable of doing the unimaginable when life demands it. In my case, I had no choice. It was there and I had to deal with it or drown and be washed away in sorrow, rage, anger and fear. I chose to stand back up and it took superhuman strength and the will to survive. The unknown or rather the fear of it is something I grapple with everyday but I know that when the next “lesson” shows up I just have to grab the bull by the horns and go with the flow knowing that “I am enough” and I will overcome whatever it is.

Daily writing prompt
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

The Complainer!

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I like to complain just like anyone else. It is a built-in mechanism that goes off when something doesn’t go right and that happens a lot. When it happens, I am in my problem-solving mode but not only that, I tend to pull my hair out and dig my heels in till I get it solved. The problem is, it takes time and I’m not very patient at times.

What do I complain about? Just about anything I guess. A lot of times it is done to let off steam and to relieve stress. Currently, it is about the world of politics. What is happening is unbelievable and to see “fascism” on the rise is horrific not to mention scary as well. Migrants have become the bane of society and to get them out at any cost, including lives lost, is nothing to sneeze at, it seems. I try not to get agitated but it is hard to do in today’s political climate. So, I complain a lot about that and since I don’t write as much as I used to, there is no avenue to vent that frustration then to let it simmer and boil! However, a few minutes out in nature and fresh air helps to calm the beast down!

The other things I complain about are just the normal day-to-day variety. Nothing significant but it does give the “stress monster” an upper-hand at times. A broken lightbulb that needs replacing, clearing snow from the sidewalk, my car acting up for no apparent reason, and a whole host of other things!

Small things that add up and when you keep adding fuel to the fire, it becomes worthy of complaining! I’m learning to tone the rhetoric down, step back and to reevaluate the situation, take a couple of much needed breaths and to move on from there.

Is it working? What do you think?!!