Dreaming Big

To tell you the truth, I don’t dream big these days. I take each day as it comes and at the end of the day I say, “You made it through today and that is enough.”

I used to have big dreams but now it is about “learning” as I go along. However, I would like to see my son make it. He is on his way and it took a lot of work, energy, and pain to get him there. Children are not easy and trying to raise a child as a single mom was definitely not easy. There was trial and error involved and some days I wanted to just give up and say, “I can’t do this!” I didn’t. I kept on. Somehow we made it.

He is standing on his own two feet now. Earning enough to have a nice apartment and more than enough for all his needs. The important thing, he says he is happy with what he is doing. That right there is important. It makes life so much easier.

However, he is not all the way there yet His six month probationary period is coming up and I HOPE he makes it! In the meantime, he is traveling and doing the best he can. I think he is fully capable of achieving anything and everything he wants to achieve in life. He just needs to put one foot in front of the other and keep on moving!

My biggest dream would be to see him succeed. I want to see him do things on his own and not run to mommy for help. He is already doing that, “mommy” is standing on the sidelines and watching him do his thing.

He was on a business trip this week and he did it all on his own. No help needed! Needless to say, I was climbing walls wondering if he was alright but that’s just the helicopter mom in me!

I hope by next year he will handle things on his own and I will be the “wind beneath his wings.” Still there to help if he needs it but no longer the mainstay.

A big dream? Definitely.