It’s a song by Teddy Swims called, “Amazing.” The guy is not my kind of guy, he has a body full of tattoos but his voice is dreamy and the friend who passed away, the one I call the “angel” sent it to me. Our relationship was based on “songs” among other things. The song lyrics have stuck with me even though he is no longer here.
Why? Simply because I was struggling when I met the angel. I was just coming out of a long-term marriage and my self-esteem had taken a beating. Cheating does that. I was so far down the rabbit hole that I thought I was never coming out of it. I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror because all I saw was “ugly.” Turns out looks had nothing to do with it because the woman my ex took up with was a duplicate of Popeye’s Olive Oyl. Yup, looks had nothing to do with it at all. I didn’t see it that way at the time. I went into the trenches and blamed myself for his wrongdoings and told myself that maybe I wasn’t good enough. Then along came the angel. This was one of the songs he sent me.
It did a lot to bring me out of the self-pity mode I was in. It took time but he never gave up. Every chance he got, he showed me that I was special especially to him and every chance he got, he told me I was beautiful. He not only spoke those words but his actions made me believe them.
It’s interesting how one man thought I was amazing in the beginning but as time went on, he left me feeling like I was nothing. Along came someone else who thought I was amazing and stayed to show me just how true that was. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder as they say and I experienced it firsthand from the “angel.”
He is gone now but that song and its lyrics will stay with me forever. It helped me when I needed it most.
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