Future or the Past?

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I think I do both. I think about the past a lot mostly about mistakes I’ve made and how not to repeat them again. They say if used wisely you learn from your past. However, we are prone to repeat those same mistakes if we are wired a certain way meaning we find comfort in those same things that caused us the problems in the first place so I do place a lot of effort and energy into finding out what they are and how to go about changing those behavior traits.

Thinking about the future is inevitable because I am an overthinker and as such I use the “what if” scenario a lot. Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball to predict the future and since that is never going to happen, the next best thing is to think about it! This year, I am going to trust in the journey as I said in one of my articles and to go with the flow. Fingers crossed!

Daily writing prompt
Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

The Greatest Gift?

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If I’m talking about a relationship, I would say it would be trust. It is sorely lacking where I am concerned. I know trust has to be earned and sometimes it takes years to build but it could also be destroyed in a matter of seconds as I learned in my life. I’ve been trying to regain it ever since but it is sorely lacking and therefore makes any relationship I step into a hard one to navigate and unfortunately for me the menfolk prove over and over again that I shouldn’t give my trust blindly.

Trust would be the number 1 gift someone could give me but I also know that it takes two to tango so I must also be willing to meet that person halfway and to give them a chance to prove their trustworthiness. Right now or for a long time I’ve had a lock around my heart because of this trust issue and so most of my relationships go down south before even taking off. Perhaps before I can receive that gift of trust, I need to make some changes as well. That’s a hard one for me.

Daily writing prompt
What is the greatest gift someone could give you?

My Education?

Wow, I think before I get through these daily prompts, my whole life will be out there on display!

Let’s see, I studied Journalism and later went into Education because journalism required that I finish articles or reports at a given time span and it was too much pressure for me and it took the fun out of writing. I love writing but I wanted to do it at my own pace so I backed out of doing it full-time.

I didn’t give up on writing altogether. I kept at it by writing freelance articles, writing for a fashion magazine, writing for a political website and published a book. When all is said and done, writing is still my first love only not the pressurized variety. These days I take it at my own pace and write about whatever I want and that I find brings out the best in me and my writing.

Colleges I attended? That’s for me to know and for you to find out.

Daily writing prompt
What colleges have you attended?

My Daily Playtime?

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I do have one thing I try to do everyday and that is to play with Chachi, the cat. We’ve come up with a different version of hide-and-seek and the little guy knows exactly what to do! I hide and he needs to find me. The difference to this version is that when he finds me and I catch him, he gets 10 kisses each time.

It’s not about the finding but the kisses that matters. Some days he walks away with more than 30 kisses but who’s counting! I love giving him kisses and he loves getting them and that’s what counts. It is a sort of bonding time for us but let me tell you, I am pooped by the time we finish! He walks off with a grin on his face if you can call it that, happy with the world and with his mommy.

Daily writing prompt
Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?

My Biggest Challenges

I think it is learning to undo some learned patterns and behavior traits. We become accustomed to what is comfortable and that doesn’t necessarily mean good for us. The same goes for me. I tend to be very accepting of things that do not serve me knowing full well that they don’t but instead of putting a stop to it I make excuses and that right there is my problem. Sometimes being “nice” doesn’t necessarily bring the same into your life.

This year I need to stop being nice and accepting of things I know that are not good for me and learn to break the patterns that enable such behavior. It starts with looking within to see why such patterns exist and that is not a comfortable thing to do. It means owning up to and accepting what is there and changing it for the better. Not always easy to do.

Daily writing prompt
What are your biggest challenges?

Nostalgic Longings

I think it is those days when I was young and running wild as the proverbial tomboy in the woods behind my home. It was a time of freedom and not caring for the norms that life or society stipulates on how you should be. No rules, no regulations and no listening to that inner voice, just letting go and living life as it was meant to be.

Those days are gone but I if I had a chance to go back there again, I would! Some days the rebellion sets in and I still jump in duck puddles when no one is looking but it is far and few. I am all prim and proper now but don’t let that fool you, there is that little “wild child” still inside of me. Some days I revisit those days and it still brings a smile to my face. Good memories of days gone by but still precious and they live on in the grown-up me. Mom, if you’re listening, I am more like you wanted me to be, more of a “lady” but I can tell you, it is NOT that much fun!

Daily writing prompt
What makes you feel nostalgic?

Relationships

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In my opinion, relationships are hard. There are ups and downs and sometimes they don’t contribute to your well-being. I find it hard navigating through relationships and at times I’ve had to let some go because it didn’t serve me and my needs.

One relationship that has had a positive impact on me is the one I have with Chachi, the cat. This little guy is a handful and a macho at times but if there is a “perfect” relationship then this is it. It is one where I do the talking and he listens. Not always but that adoring look does go straight to the heart. What he is really thinking that is another story altogether! We know our boundaries and as long as that is respected all is well in this household. It is a sort of give and take but what I get from him is hard to explain. It is comfort, warmth and definitely love as Chachi sees fit and that too is part and parcel of this relationship. Not always a win-win situation but I’ll take it. I am more relaxed in his presence and less stressed and that has made a positive impact on my life.

Daily writing prompt
What relationships have a positive impact on you?

If I Started a Sports Team…

It would have bright colors, something eye-catching as the logo. Add, Chachi, the cat as the mascot and you’ve got a winning team. The cry would be, “Fast, Furious and Fight! Fight! Fight! ”

The little cutie is a macho in disguise! Any sports team would be proud to have him as their mascot. He looks like a little lion at times and with his cross-legged stance, he draws you in like a magnet!

Daily writing prompt
If you started a sports team, what would the colors and mascot be?

My Political Views Over Time

I can be very political having written numerous articles over the subject but these days I tend to back away and stay quiet at times when I shouldn’t. However, when something seems so unjust or is colored with racist undertones, I speak out as I did with my article on “Magdeburg Germany,” where the horrific Christmas market killings took place.

Perhaps, my article “Trumpenitus” speaks clearly on my shift from being a Trump supporter to speaking out against him and his policies. Some people I know tend to have the same views but do nothing about it but I believe that “words” do have power and it can be used to bring good to an otherwise unjust world at times.

Daily writing prompt
How have your political views changed over time?

My Perfect Space for Reading and Writing.

This one is easy because I already have it. It’s a room I call my office space, not too big and not too small. Just cozy and perfectly furnished but with lots of clutter because “clutter” somehow gets my creative juices flowing.

It has one big window and if I look up while I’m writing, I see the fields in the distance and today they are shrouded in fog. Sort of spooky looking but enough to get some ideas going. Just in front of the window is a big Japanese Cherry Blossom tree which is gorgeous in spring when in full bloom. Right now, it looks bare with little droplets of water clinging to its branches. Still a pretty sight.

This is my perfect space and if I add Chachi, the cat, sitting on the window ledge than this space becomes more than perfect.

Daily writing prompt
You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?